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[Sep. 2nd, 2005|08:44 pm] |
Isserley represents a fragmented self; there are different voices within her contesting each other, and the selves within her never seem to reconcile. "As soon as she caught herself yearning, she yanked this contemptible little shoot of sentimentality out by the root." The repressed self in Isserley surfaces at her most vulnerable moments, and she makes a conscious attempt to ensure that it remains in the shadows. Isserley, in fact, yearns for the respect of her other human counterparts, wanting to show Amlis Vess that she is capable and indispensible by bringing back bounty, but she knows that 'indispensible' was "a word people tended to resort to when dispensibility was in the air". (76) Ensel steals a piece of meat for Isserley, and she is determined not to show gratitude. She has repressed anxieties yet only portrays a stoic appearance. This, i find, is a way of self-defence mechanism of an alienated person, who finds herself unable to fit as a regular member in either her human or vodsel community, and she learns to distrust both sides. Isserley's melancholy is never explained in the novel - "something inside her was trapped", but the reader can only guess at what is it. Her guilt towards the vodsels, yet full of disdain at this guilt because it would mean that she identified with the "animals"? Coupled with the indignance that her body is mutilated?
In our society, "sizing somebody up" is a colloquial speech, a figurative metaphor used to 'test' someone's eligibility. in Isserley context, this phrase takes on the literal meaning. Both hitcher and Isserley practise the mutual act of sizing each other up: the size of tits and muscles respectively. To the hitcher, the body is a metaphor for sex; to Isserley, the body is metaphor for food. And this is "the law of the fucking jungle" (36). Except that size, instead of indicating intimidation, is now a vulnerability. Both parties are vulnerable to attacks from either one.
"Just one humiliating encounter could shake her so badly." (41) Isserley feels threatened by the looming fear that is triggered by a hitcher's aggression, and she is almost immediately ashamed for feeling scared. Her body is a tool (which she likes to believe is indispensible) from which she completes her job by using it as a bait. Her body allows her to feel accomplished, and inherent in that, a sense of power. It is a way of assuring herself that she maintain a sense of authority among her human counterparts. The body, however, is also a liability since she is at the mercy of male vodsels who harbour fantasies of raping her. This deprives her of the absolute power of the hunter against the hunted.
The novel is a third person narrative which centers Isserley's thoughts and emotions. The significance of the body to Isserley is implied when she reveals that "th[e] inability of some of the most superbly fit and well-adapted vodsels to be happy while they were alive...was one of the greatest mysteries" to her. At one point of time, Isserley believed that "her passage into a bright future was a matter of physical inevitability, a lush and glossy birthright...". Isserley gives the body weight by equating it as a source of confidence, pride and happiness. One can imagine her repressed emotional pain at having to endure living in a mutilated body, a constant reminder of inferiority and shame. Moments in the novel hint of Isserley's private struggle against "the embittering specifics of her sacrifice".
Irony 1. "Instead, here she was, free to wander in an unbounded wilderness..." (68). Isserley badly wants to believe she is liberated like her physical surroundings, but the irony comes when it is revealed on the next page that "[i]n her mind, she was already behind the wheel". What does Isserley base her identity on? I find that she is bound heavily by her physical deformity, and as much as she tries to break out of it, her body nevertheless is a relentless reminder of shame and humiliation that she, simply put, is a social misfit. Because she is handicapped, she desires to prove herself otherwise through her commitment of the job behind the wheel. Is this the only way to salvation for Isserley?
2. It is ironic that Isserley chooses victims by indication of them being isolated wanderers whom no-one cares for, when Isserley herself is possibly in the same plight as her victims. Isserley changes her physical form, and to her, it becomes a loss of identity.
--- I identify with Isserley on a "human" level because she has anxieties, is guilty of stereotyping "typical" male figures, seeks solace during private moments with nature. She longs for an outlet to vent her pent-up, "undigested" feelings. She struggles to get a grip of herself yet she falls prey to some feeling that she cannot exactly identify. Like humans, like me, she is a being made up of emotions. So what freaked me out was when she desired some form of catharsis at witnessing the castration of the male vodsel - I was horrified because he was of my own species! I find it sad too when William's silence was mistaken by Isserley as stupidity, immediately classified as "a typical male of the species". There he was, trying to be concerned yet exercising concern over how his remarks would be interpreted in the context of "over-civilisation". Isserley's revenge on William has saddened me (Faber probably intended to create such an effect, seeing his in-depth attention to William's thoughts), yet I can also identify this as a vulnerability following the rape. The boundaries between Me as Self, and Isserley as Other, it seems, are blurred and contestable. |
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